Journey of Self Discovery
Journey of Self Discovery Self discovery was a process I thought I had already been through. But when faced with the question, “Who am l? ” it proved to be a lot harder to put into words than one would think. I believe that I have a good sense of who I am, but translating it into words was a struggle for me. I consider myself to be a very concrete thinker. So, the translation of who I am into words tended to come out as cold and rigid. Words like brash, concrete, smart, and loyal seemed like a big “thud” on paper. At first I thought, am I really that boring and cold?
Which then brings to question, is this eally who I am? The following is my best attempt to put myself into words. I’m going to attempt to lighten up those rigid words I came up with to describe me and try to explain why I chose these words. Hopefully these explanations will bring life to them. The first word is brash and is defined as “offensively bold. ” You can either like me or not. I am strong-willed individual who does not take disrespect from anyone. I can defend myself in most situations. I can most often times convince others that I am right.
I know how to think critically and make sound decisions when thers fail to. I believe the second and third words go together in explanation for me. The second word is concrete and when used as an adjective, is defined as, “capable of being perceived by the senses; not abstract or imaginary. ” The third word is smart and, also, when used as an adjective, is defined as, “characterized by quickness and ease in learning. ” I have the ability to sort through the “fluff’ and get to the facts so I can make a good decision or form a strong opinion.
I can make others question their own opinions or beliefs by flooding them with facts and evidence. In this way I am very persuasive and convincing. The final word is loyal. It is used to describe people of “unwavering in devotion to friend or vow or cause. ” When it comes to those I love, I will defend them to the end; whether they are right, wrong, deserving, or undeserving. My family made me who I am today; without them I would be lost. I am also a woman of strong convictions. I devote myself to my family, faith, and many causes close to my heart. What do I believe?
Well, I believe in a lot of things. I believe that someday I will be at peace. But right now I’m Just trying to make all my goals in life reality and there is no time for true peace. I also believe that God has a plan for me; I Just hope it is the same plan I have in mind. I believe that without family I would not be who I am today. I believe that true happiness is in truly, living life and experiencing it to the fullest. I believe that things in life must be earned to truly appreciate them. My beliefs are like a fuel for the fire I have inside of me. It keeps me going even when times are tough.
Beliefs are like little pieces of chocolate in my hectic life; they help e pause for a moment and smile. Who I am and what I believe have influence on my perception. For instance, my people don’t appreciate what is handed to them. I have faith in God that everything is a part of the plan he has in store for us. So when amazing or unfortunate things happen, I believe its God at work. True happiness is about living life to the fullest not material possessions, so it’s easy to tell who the truly happy people are. Those who waste their potential by dropping out of school, staying in a dead end Job, etc. is not being all that they can be.
Who I am, strong-minded; opinionated; and loyal to those I love, has the biggest influence on my perception My culture also has some influence on my perception. Overall, I come from a typical 20th Century American family and way of thinking. Everyone has strived to live the American dream of owning a house and having a family. In recent decades, my family has seen its fair share of the new modern twist to American families: divorce. Even though it was difficult to come from a broken home, it shaped who I am today. Today, I strive to never take my family for granted and will never put my own children hrough that.
IVe been through a lot at a young age: parents’ divorce, the tons of moving that result from it, and then an abuse from a high school boyfriend I have a hard time with trust people. I have trust, body, and anger issues stemming from these situations. All of these experiences have shaped who I am today and how I perceive life and others. When comparing my culture perspectives to that of the artists in this unit’s lecture, my culture seems to lack the vibrant characteristics displayed in their art. In my opinion, American culture is very “l” oriented.
The Do Ho Suh’s art seems much ocused on community and power in numbers. Shahzia Sikander is different from my culture Just simply because her culture is far different from America. Pakistan culture is very rooted in their past and you can see that in her art even when the subjects are of modern origin. They also have some similarities to my culture as well. For instance, Do Ho Suh’s demonstration of community can also be similar to our sense of small town America; especially out here in western Kansas. Small communities are very tight knit and thrive only on the very little numbers they have.
Any My Le can be related to American culture because she demonstrates media manipulation, which we in American experience on a daily basis. When comparing my influences of perception with some of the artists in this lecture, there are some characteristics and values that they demonstrate that are like mien. For example, my strong loyalty and love for family can be compared to both Kara Walker and Do Ho Suh; they both influenced a strong since of family or community. Overall, all the artists demonstrated a strong since of their individual cultures and how that made hem the person they are today, which I can relate to.
Brash, concrete, smart, and loyal: words I chose to describe who I am. Do they do me justice? I still think that after writing this paper the words seem too rigid and cold. I am human and I live, breath, and flourish like all beautiful things on this planet. Sometimes words really cannot describe a person, a scene, an experience, or a feeling. The artists in this lecture are able to express themselves in art; the colors, have chosen. Perhaps I should use silhouette paper cutting or miniature painting to truly express who I am.